[ welp. sighs and sits down outside the barrier. (I GUESS I'M JUST ASSUMING THAT'S WHERE SHE IS SINCE CAMILLE GOT BABYJAILED THERE?? CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG.) how's she looking. ]
she's still hulking, horns sharp, third eye open. she grins widely, but it's more like baring rows of sharp teeth. she crouches down in her bubble barrier prison, almost like a gargoyle, tail swishing like she's looking at prey. hello...]
[ IT'S FINE he has faith in pesto's barrier quality..... :stressed: ]
Maybe. But I don't think anyone was really equipped to deal with it in the moment, and voting for you wasn't really an option when we had another culprit who probably didn't have a partner.
Though I think some of them probably would have refused to vote for you anyway.
Sorry. I guess that sounded like a more positive thing in my head. It's just— you know, people want to have more time with you and talk to you as yourself again before it's over.
The monster did it, not you. Killing someone here was the last thing you wanted to do. And if you're going to blame yourself for that, you're blaming everyone else who ended up in the same situation.
My point is that you — Karlach, minus this dumb monster who should stay out of the conversation — shouldn't be including yourself as a significant factor in this equation. The cult chose to activate your monster and incite it to kill someone. You were just handcuffed to that monster and along for the shitty ride.
Which, like— it fucking sucks to have your agency taken away like that, so looking at it that way may not feel any better! But you shouldn't be looking at it as you hurting someone. The cult's always been the villain here, so let's just take this out on them.
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drymonster) wrote2024-06-08 01:34 pm
w4, saturday
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she's still hulking, horns sharp, third eye open. she grins widely, but it's more like baring rows of sharp teeth. she crouches down in her bubble barrier prison, almost like a gargoyle, tail swishing like she's looking at prey. hello...]
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[ sighs. man!!! ]
Sorry. It really sucks that this is happening to you.
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Shouldn't be. [she growls, still grinning.] You're going to regret not killing me when you had the chance.
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Maybe. But I don't think anyone was really equipped to deal with it in the moment, and voting for you wasn't really an option when we had another culprit who probably didn't have a partner.
Though I think some of them probably would have refused to vote for you anyway.
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she coughs. spits blood to the side.]
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she laughs at that, giggling weakly.]
Best I've. Best I've ever been.
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Sorry. I guess that sounded like a more positive thing in my head. It's just— you know, people want to have more time with you and talk to you as yourself again before it's over.
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[another cough.]
It is. Positive.
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[she says, cheerfully. sort of.]
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There's no fucking blame in it. Positivity just doesn't bring him back.
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But you can be sad and angry that he died for this stupid cult without saying "I" killed him.
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Yeah, okay. Sure. Tell me how to talk, too.
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Which, like— it fucking sucks to have your agency taken away like that, so looking at it that way may not feel any better! But you shouldn't be looking at it as you hurting someone. The cult's always been the villain here, so let's just take this out on them.