todomatsu will wander over the holding cells eventually. he feels a little weird about the idea of intentionally going to see scien after how all their previous interactions went, but he'd like to get a little more closure on all of this if he can. it ironically seems clearer than ever now that he and dahut really had cared about each other in their weird way. which is... relatable, honestly.
he raises his hand in a little wave, but tries to keep some distance. ]
Hey... [ ... ] That glass doesn't like, give you a barrier against everyone's emotions or anything, does it?
[ because having to deal with the feelings of everyone who comes in here now seems like it would be Rough. ]
horizontal again i'm sorry this man is really splayed out on the ground looking at the ceiling. his emotions are still in that tight little box bundle, but the strongest one that leaks through is this sense of being lost.]
It doesn't.
But it shouldn't be enough to overwhelm my memory bank again.
[ i mean fucking valid tbh. and he's feeling pretty lost himself for his own reasons. ]
Mm, I don't think so.
[ it's not like you can dissect him from the other side of the glass... and he kind of got over that fear after hearing dahut talk about him before anyway. he's just standing back now because of the emotion share thing, though he goes ahead and steps closer after that answer. ]
You're probably sick of people asking you what actually happened, but I'm going to ask it anyway.
[which is his way of saying that he doesn't mind. he closes his eyes again]
As everyone else passed out around us, Dahut and I remained awake. I— [there is a curling feeling of violence. an echo of it. scien pauses, as if trying to parse the emotion]
Only in the sense that I wondered why he hadn't reported it to me since I've ben waiting on him to produce results for years, but he said it was a recent development in his own timeline.
But we were able to discuss how he did it, and I devised how to make Relivers with fully functioning emotional capacity.
[ . . .
but even after he says it, there's a hue of confusion in his emotions. wait what.]
Were you just like, that out of it that you don't even really remember what happened?
[ he could see doing the opposite of the proper protocol to divert suspicion from himself, but it doesn't seem like he really wanted to get away with it... ]
[there is a long, contemplative silence. his weird reliver emotions come up again, a swirl of confusion and sparks frustration. he is trying to answer the question.]
... It made sense to me at the time.
But I am aware, more than anyone else, that such a statement makes me sound like a fool.
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drymonster) wrote2024-02-24 09:06 pm
w0, saturday
todomatsu will wander over the holding cells eventually. he feels a little weird about the idea of intentionally going to see scien after how all their previous interactions went, but he'd like to get a little more closure on all of this if he can. it ironically seems clearer than ever now that he and dahut really had cared about each other in their weird way. which is... relatable, honestly.
he raises his hand in a little wave, but tries to keep some distance. ]
Hey... [ ... ] That glass doesn't like, give you a barrier against everyone's emotions or anything, does it?
[ because having to deal with the feelings of everyone who comes in here now seems like it would be Rough. ]
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horizontal again i'm sorry this man is really splayed out on the ground looking at the ceiling. his emotions are still in that tight little box bundle, but the strongest one that leaks through is this sense of being lost.]
It doesn't.
But it shouldn't be enough to overwhelm my memory bank again.
You're brave for coming to see me.
[he'll acknowledge it since.... yea]
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Mm, I don't think so.
[ it's not like you can dissect him from the other side of the glass... and he kind of got over that fear after hearing dahut talk about him before anyway. he's just standing back now because of the emotion share thing, though he goes ahead and steps closer after that answer. ]
You're probably sick of people asking you what actually happened, but I'm going to ask it anyway.
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[which is his way of saying that he doesn't mind. he closes his eyes again]
As everyone else passed out around us, Dahut and I remained awake. I— [there is a curling feeling of violence. an echo of it. scien pauses, as if trying to parse the emotion]
... I wanted to see his heart. So I did.
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Even though you made it in the first place?
[ ...or maybe that was why? if he wanted to try to see what those feelings that shouldn't have been there looked like, or something? ]
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He didn't report his findings to me, though he did explain to me how it was done... even though his work was still incomplete.
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But we were able to discuss how he did it, and I devised how to make Relivers with fully functioning emotional capacity.
[ . . .
but even after he says it, there's a hue of confusion in his emotions. wait what.]
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[no shit scien
but he's lost in his thoughts i'm so sorry]
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That's not... what actually happened, right?
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But that was our conversation on Monday. [ . . . ] It makes Thursday harder to explain.
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[ the vibes are honestly less judgmental than might be expected with that remark, it's truly just. what happened there?? ]
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[ . . . ]
But I know best of all that the protocol is to take dead Reliver vessels and burn them to ash.
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[ ... ]
Were you just like, that out of it that you don't even really remember what happened?
[ he could see doing the opposite of the proper protocol to divert suspicion from himself, but it doesn't seem like he really wanted to get away with it... ]
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... It made sense to me at the time.
But I am aware, more than anyone else, that such a statement makes me sound like a fool.