Kind of just turned into a popularity contest, it feels like. Which, you know, I'm apparently very skilled at losing, so I don't know what I expected.

[ feels bad though!!! ]

But nah, it's fine. It sounds like things aren't bad over there. Probably less stressful anyway.

Kind of feels like it always does, in a way.

[ but yeah. feels bad. ]

I'm less worried about what it's like on the other side than what it takes to get there.

Well, yeah, I'm not looking forward to that.

[ some deeper anxiety creeps into the emotional mix, tangling with the anger and nihilism, and he glances away. ]

Not like it'll be the first time I've died, though, so...

[ he shrugs, but. well. those were funny cartoon deaths. they still hurt, but there's just something very different about a five second death in a goofy explosion compared to whatever's coming tomorrow. ]

[ this would be more alarming if they weren't all in their second murdergame so that's what he's assuming happened. ]

Still. It'd be nice if it could be a little easier on someone who doesn't belong out there. [ ... ] But I guess it's good they'll be getting someone who isn't totally insane, too.

[ every time i come back to a tab and find that dw got stuck in the process of sending it i get a little closer to going insane myself ]

I mean, I do kind of belong there, but. Yeah.

[ that sure would be nice. smash cut to him dying four fucking times tomorrow.

rubs his face. ]

God, which one were they even hypothetically trying to pin on me, Ichiban???

Not for what happened this week.

[ it's not the same!! ]

That's my guess. But you guys were always pretty close, weren't you?

[ it is soooo not the same and as bad as his vibes are there is also some gratitude to kazuki in there for getting it!!!! ]

We were friends, yeah. Which doesn't necessarily mean much under the circumstances, but I feel like he'll be pretty pissed to find out that's why I'm dead.